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Breaking up is painful

i wonder what i'll have to do differently..... to be understood.
i'm here to grow... to learn.... and be successful .
i tried my best, but incompetence has not the eyes or the ears to recognize.
but now - after 2 years 2 months and 25 days.... breaking up time is here (mentally).

i mean this would be a one sided breakup - as all breakups normally are.
breakups are painful - as will this be.
i don't have a clue where I'm going to go from here - i thought it would be for keeps.
now i will do only that much as is necessary to keep the ball rolling
if it's a gutter ball - then tough luck!

I know the recession is here.
Things will get tougher.
Maybe - this is an opportunity.
To start from scratch.
Doing the things I want to.
Rather than that which I have to.

I know he may read this.
I know he will never admit to having read this.
But his constant "well meant" advice has finally taken its toll.
He is what he is - but then so am I.
Time for him to stew in his own pie.

Then mebbe - Arjun will smile :-)

Comments

SMM said…
Painful yes...but very much needed
utopia said…
i know how that feels.

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