i wonder what i'll have to do differently..... to be understood. i'm here to grow... to learn.... and be successful . i tried my best, but incompetence has not the eyes or the ears to recognize. but now - after 2 years 2 months and 25 days.... breaking up time is here (mentally).
i mean this would be a one sided breakup - as all breakups normally are. breakups are painful - as will this be. i don't have a clue where I'm going to go from here - i thought it would be for keeps. now i will do only that much as is necessary to keep the ball rolling if it's a gutter ball - then tough luck!
I know the recession is here. Things will get tougher. Maybe - this is an opportunity. To start from scratch. Doing the things I want to. Rather than that which I have to.
I know he may read this. I know he will never admit to having read this. But his constant "well meant" advice has finally taken its toll. He is what he is - but then so am I. Time for him to stew in his own pie.
I wish I could be SANTA CLAUS.... (the weight is already coming on)
Here's my gift list for family'n'friends!!
SUPRIYA - love, love .. and loads of love (no monetary gifts)
MOM - a big warm hug
MA - peace of mind
DAD - a new car!!
BABA - the last 15 years of his life... with the happiness to boot
TINA - a 100K per year job in LA
GAUTAM - that he becomes daddy in 09!!!
BUA - loads of happiness!
SHIVY bhabhi- becomes a mommy in 09!
AMANDEEP - true love!!
RANIT - a healed up back!!
VISHAL - a marriage with the lady of his dreams
JOHNNNNY - 25 kgs weight loss
SHYAMAL - a speedy return to INDIA
DADI - that she becomes a great grandmother this year (again)
SANA - that she retains her cuteness and beauty for the years to come
ASHA - an understanding prince charming.
PRIYANKA - opportunities to do some great photography (she shoots really well)
ARPITA - happiness!!
AYESHA - stability and a great paying job
DEYA - a shift to a college in KOLKATA... with all the people she wants …
Sit with him for 10 minutes.
He will talk.
You will listen.
He will drain you and fill you.
Drain you out of energy, willpower. Fill you up with resentment and the urge to throw caution to the wind and tell him to go to hell.
It's an art that not many have perfected.
Yet he does it with ease.
He will not lose his cool. Yet - he will make you lose yours.
It's like the world is absent of happiness... of peace... of that little cul de sac... where my mind might know some peace!!
It was not so far back that folks wrote her off. SHe's back with a bang - and her new album - CIRCUS - got off on the right foot!! With Brittney - it's always like a crest and trough phenomenon.... i wonder when the next trough is coming (or not - i hope)
I know this from personal experience. I'm sure you hairy wonders feel the winter chill too. But skintops minus the bush always experience heightened chills. This erosion may be due to natural causes or a strategic decision to have a barren playground in the north.
The same is true for the environment.
We chop down that last bit of green cover for our use.
The poor earthman is going bald. He's gonna feel the chill very soon.
Yes - this is a POSED FOR pic...
But I think it symbolizes what we should be doing now.
Stand up and be counted.... against ALL that is wrong.
The Terrorists are just a sign of the rot that has seeped in. We need (all of us that is) to start following some common rules and laws as a starter....
Darkness clouds the road ahead. This lack of light thereof hurdles my return home to my loved.
A beam of light cuts thru from time to time as we cover patches where this darkness is less than pronounced.
I should be afraid!
But I revel in the risk of the moment
Somewhere up ahead the grim reaper is searching for me as he does for all of us.
This hide and seek must end - sooner or later.
I'm no exception to the general rule - though I wonder what immortality would be like. maybe it would be like this leaf... stuck in a morass!!
Mrs. Indira gandhi was assassinated.
Mr. Rajiv gandhi was assassinated.
So bloody what?
There are innumerable cases of Indian families losing fathers , sons & daughters in wars and conflicts over the years.
So did their next of kin get X Y Z category of protection? I don't think so.
I know it's time to end the VIP culture and live in a real democracy. The politician in India has jumped the queue, expects garlanding at airports and loves his status quo. Why should I change my route for a fucking prime minister or any bastardized politician. If I lose my life in an ambulance because I could not get to the hospital on time since there was a holdup and a politician with xyz level of threat responsibility.
This is personal and I don't really care who gets hurt. Maybe it is time to hurt the parliament again - this time with more success.
I sincerely hope that the NSG walks away at the time
I pay my taxes on time. Have been paying them for quite some time now. But I don't seem to be getting enough bang for my bucK.
This nation of Gandhi is becoming a collection of gaa***s.
The American said it straight - our way or the highway and backed it up with guns. Time for Bharatmata to do the same.
I've watched the news channels more in the last week than in the lat two years. It's the phase of becoming aware - of realizing it doesn't take much to lay us down. We are vulnerable. We are being taken advantage of and nothing we do other than lay back, spread our legs and hold up a big sign - DO ME!!!