i wonder what i'll have to do differently..... to be understood. i'm here to grow... to learn.... and be successful . i tried my best, but incompetence has not the eyes or the ears to recognize. but now - after 2 years 2 months and 25 days.... breaking up time is here (mentally).
i mean this would be a one sided breakup - as all breakups normally are. breakups are painful - as will this be. i don't have a clue where I'm going to go from here - i thought it would be for keeps. now i will do only that much as is necessary to keep the ball rolling if it's a gutter ball - then tough luck!
I know the recession is here. Things will get tougher. Maybe - this is an opportunity. To start from scratch. Doing the things I want to. Rather than that which I have to.
I know he may read this. I know he will never admit to having read this. But his constant "well meant" advice has finally taken its toll. He is what he is - but then so am I. Time for him to stew in his own pie.
I wish I could be SANTA CLAUS.... (the weight is already coming on)
Here's my gift list for family'n'friends!!
SUPRIYA - love, love .. and loads of love (no monetary gifts)
MOM - a big warm hug
MA - peace of mind
DAD - a new car!!
BABA - the last 15 years of his life... with the happiness to boot
TINA - a 100K per year job in LA
GAUTAM - that he becomes daddy in 09!!!
BUA - loads of happiness!
SHIVY bhabhi- becomes a mommy in 09!
AMANDEEP - true love!!
RANIT - a healed up back!!
VISHAL - a marriage with the lady of his dreams
JOHNNNNY - 25 kgs weight loss
SHYAMAL - a speedy return to INDIA
DADI - that she becomes a great grandmother this year (again)
SANA - that she retains her cuteness and beauty for the years to come
ASHA - an understanding prince charming.
PRIYANKA - opportunities to do some great photography (she shoots really well)
ARPITA - happiness!!
AYESHA - stability and a great paying job
DEYA - a shift to a college in KOLKATA... with all the people she wants …
Sit with him for 10 minutes.
He will talk.
You will listen.
He will drain you and fill you.
Drain you out of energy, willpower. Fill you up with resentment and the urge to throw caution to the wind and tell him to go to hell.
It's an art that not many have perfected.
Yet he does it with ease.
He will not lose his cool. Yet - he will make you lose yours.
It's like the world is absent of happiness... of peace... of that little cul de sac... where my mind might know some peace!!
It was not so far back that folks wrote her off. SHe's back with a bang - and her new album - CIRCUS - got off on the right foot!! With Brittney - it's always like a crest and trough phenomenon.... i wonder when the next trough is coming (or not - i hope)
I know this from personal experience. I'm sure you hairy wonders feel the winter chill too. But skintops minus the bush always experience heightened chills. This erosion may be due to natural causes or a strategic decision to have a barren playground in the north.
The same is true for the environment.
We chop down that last bit of green cover for our use.
The poor earthman is going bald. He's gonna feel the chill very soon.
Yes - this is a POSED FOR pic...
But I think it symbolizes what we should be doing now.
Stand up and be counted.... against ALL that is wrong.
The Terrorists are just a sign of the rot that has seeped in. We need (all of us that is) to start following some common rules and laws as a starter....
Darkness clouds the road ahead. This lack of light thereof hurdles my return home to my loved.
A beam of light cuts thru from time to time as we cover patches where this darkness is less than pronounced.
I should be afraid!
But I revel in the risk of the moment
Somewhere up ahead the grim reaper is searching for me as he does for all of us.
This hide and seek must end - sooner or later.
I'm no exception to the general rule - though I wonder what immortality would be like. maybe it would be like this leaf... stuck in a morass!!
Mrs. Indira gandhi was assassinated.
Mr. Rajiv gandhi was assassinated.
So bloody what?
There are innumerable cases of Indian families losing fathers , sons & daughters in wars and conflicts over the years.
So did their next of kin get X Y Z category of protection? I don't think so.
I know it's time to end the VIP culture and live in a real democracy. The politician in India has jumped the queue, expects garlanding at airports and loves his status quo. Why should I change my route for a fucking prime minister or any bastardized politician. If I lose my life in an ambulance because I could not get to the hospital on time since there was a holdup and a politician with xyz level of threat responsibility.
This is personal and I don't really care who gets hurt. Maybe it is time to hurt the parliament again - this time with more success.
I sincerely hope that the NSG walks away at the time
I pay my taxes on time. Have been paying them for quite some time now. But I don't seem to be getting enough bang for my bucK.
This nation of Gandhi is becoming a collection of gaa***s.
The American said it straight - our way or the highway and backed it up with guns. Time for Bharatmata to do the same.
I've watched the news channels more in the last week than in the lat two years. It's the phase of becoming aware - of realizing it doesn't take much to lay us down. We are vulnerable. We are being taken advantage of and nothing we do other than lay back, spread our legs and hold up a big sign - DO ME!!!
The Taj situation is still unresolved. The NSG is still attempting to clear the Taj. Speculation is rampant on why they're still waiting to execute the final attack. I believe some people are still trapped and the terrorists are well entrenched well.
Today a senior from school was notified deceased. He was with his wife at the Oberoi. I didn't know him personally. But the pain is there.
Actually it's been over 38 hours now. The end is still nowhere in
sight. The hostage drama is still unfolding and I'm sitting glued to
the tv set.
The blame game has already begun. People call it an intelligence
failure. They question our ability to handle such situations. I ask
them bit one question - could all the technology of the west prevent
9/11 or a 7/7?
I see the funeral pyres of our soldiers being lit. Of the innocent bystanders caught in the cross fire.
I have been an unofficial student of intelligence warfare for the last ten years or so. It would have been close to impossible to predict and forestall this attack unless we had HUMINT in place. That again is
a very tall order here.
India is the number one target for terrorist attacks in the world today accounting for 10% of global casualties in 2007.
We need to put on a strong front and take the war to the homes and families of these terrorists. Call it an eye for an eye. I'm willing to fake a few lives and play …
I've been tagged by the Goddess and here's my two cents worth!!
Your oldest memories (not necessarily in chronological order):
Being informed that I had been given a great 3rd birthday gift .... a lil sister (she's born 3yrs and a day to my birth).
Getting beaten up by my sister Tina when she was 2 & I was 5. Yes - the same birthday gift.
Running helter-skelter on dad's ship.
Always paing more attention to the girls when playing doctor- doctor!!!
What were you doing ten years ago? That would be me at 21. So i was in the final year of engineering. Making plans for getting out of college, finding a job and hitching up with the sweetheart from then. I was definitely having a great time with loads of masti and very lil in terms of academic output. Your first thought in the morning: If I had a gun - i'd go and shoot those terrorists myself!! A part of me dies everytime there's an incident like this . If you build a time capsule what would it contain?
My 250gig portabl…
A nation of a billion souls is dying..... one drop of blood at a time.
This time it is the Deccan Mujahideen in Mumbai. Earlier it was the Islamic Security Force-Indian Mujahedeen in Guwahati.
We watch it on the idiot box, read it on the internet and I wonder if any place is safe. Is there any safe time to do anything. Leopolds (AKA LEOs) was my favorite hangout in Mumbai. Today it is the scene of a terror attack. For me - terror started in 1993, when my ICSE papers finished and the bombs went off outside. I haven't been much useful thereafter in this fight.
The snow covered ground.... it's my first time Saturday, November 22 – The finale is near 09:00 AM A low business day as most of the folks prefer to go elsewhere and have some fun. We are at work as usual. However the crowds are low - so I get time to chronicle the last few days. This is the day when most exhibitors visit each others' stands and get to understand the competition!! 01:30PM
Not too many footfalls so I have time for a DONER KEBAB from HALL 2. It’s a long cold walk , filled with the cold wind blowing across the RHINE. Chills a man to the bone... and baldness ain't helping too much here! 04:30PM
It’s close to pack-up time as the show end at 5:00 PM exactly. Many of the exhibitors have already started the task of taking things apart. We’ll wait for a bit since there ain’t too much packing to do.
Our neighbors from ACCUTECH The DIAGNOSTIC trio - Jatin, Shivy and me!!05:30PM
Pack-up completed. We’re on the way to the hotel to dump the luggage, lighten the load and t…
Wednesday, November 19 – Medica Day 1 7:00 AM
Time to get ready and head out for some real work.it’s really cold here but we are well covered. The trains are full choc-a-bloc and it’s almost like being in a Mumbai local with the difference that people around you are mostly fair skinned!! The room with a view from the Hotel Quadenhof All dressed up and nowhere to go 10:00 AM
The first inquiries are in and business has begun Our Stall - Hall 3 - F10 6:30 PM
Time to head out for some of the good times. The crowd is worse since everyone gets off the exhibition at the same time and most head in the same general direction. I get the train - the rest of them will have to wait for the next one. The train is a tight fit and the PYT behind me has her head on my shoulder...just for that one instant before the wedding ring kicks in. City Lights - Jan Wellem Platz Christmas celebrations have started at Altstadt 8:00 PM
Got some of that shopping done. Mostly clothes, a few knick-knacks and a LEGO for m…
MEDICA - the worlds largest medical exhibition. Our Company is an exhibitor here.....
Our story begins a day before!!!
Monday, November 17 – VISA TIME 08:30 AM
The entire family has been granted visas for the visit. Arjun is the odd one out since it’s his first trip to the EU. The visa fellas at the German embassy had graciously granted an interview date for 2nd December 2008 against a scheduled visit from 18-23rd November. How perfectly bureaucractic!!
The fates have intervened and repeated requests have shifted the date to the day before the travel. Interview time is 45 minutes away. 09:45 AM
One look, one puppy face,a play of a smile and the visa is granted. Though he will have to return in person to collect it at 2PM. Methinks it was the glasses and his Mohandas Karamchand gandhi look that finally clinched it!! 05:00 PM
Arjun quits work to finish that last minute shopping. It’s funny how all the pieces of a jigsaw puzzle come together when ONE key piece falls into place. Suddenly a…
Sometimes it's easy to believe that the lord has turned away.... .... That he has shown us his back!! It's so easy to let the frowns crowd our face and the tears begin their journey south. We cry when we could be smiling! It's then that I remember to keep the flame alive.... ... and see the light within!!