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The To-Do List - 2007!!!

Thursday, December 28, 2006
Oh boy - 2007 is almost here!!!
I always have a to-do list that I make each year... and maintain in a personal file.
This year - it's online. :-)
So here goes...

1. Take a 10-30 minute walk every day. And while I walk, I will smile.
2.Sit in silence for at least 30 minutes each day.
3.Get more sleep.
4.Get married.<>
5.Live with the 3 E's. Energy, Enthusiasm, Empathy.
6.Watch more movies, play more games and read more books than I did in 2006.
7.Spend more time with people over the age of 60 & under the age of 6.
8.Be a good listener and supportive husband!!
9.Dream more while I am awake.
10.Drink lotsa Bacardi & plenty of water and eat apple pies, steaks, broccoli, grapes & mangoes.
11. Try to make at least 3 people smile each day.
12. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a college kid with a maxed out credit card.
13. Smile and laugh more. It will keep the energy vampires away.
14.Blog everyday
15.I will not forget that I am too blessed to be stressed.
16.Enjoy the ride for what it's worth..... this is not a ride at Disney world!!
17.Love her lots and lots!!
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The long journey

Friday, December 08, 2006
Life is a long journey.
It starts in the mind (someone else’s) and moves on to the beginning. It is a lonely road for most of the part. There are bits in the middle where fellow travelers give us company.

They come like gusts of wind.
We – like the leaves on a tree. The wind blows us in many directions. Control is not the word that comes to mind at that point of time. The gust is too strong for that.

Then suddenly it’s gone.

The leaf – that we are, falls to the ground. No longer do we have the support of our tree-brother. He watches us from afar and we wait till the next gust of wind blows us closer.
Sometimes they do, and sometimes they don’t.
2 minutes of fleeting fame... then darkness again. Alternate cycles like day and night. That’s the wild life!!

There is an alternative. You can choose to be a potted plant. You receive nourishment and care. You are firmly attached to your roots. The elements and their gusts are not your headache. No alternate cycles here – just keep the lights on for as long as you want. There may be a drought out there – but you shall receive your share of water. You shall grow till where the pot can hold you. They will prune you to size and your offspring will come up in adjacent pots. That’s the ideal life of a married man.

I’ve lived on the wild side. It’s time to come home to the potted plant.

There is something out there – some risk – some challenge – that still beckons.
Maybe it’s the rush of adrenaline that’s still not died down. Maybe it’s that lil flame that’s keeping me going.

It’s time for me to experience POTTING.
Maybe it’s not as boring as most people say.

I shall hold her hand and we will catch sunsets.
I shall enjoy watching the kids at play.
We will graciously age together.

Then one day – this traveler will reach his destination.
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rage around

Friday, December 08, 2006
you'll see it all around you.. i do!!
the anger is palpable... it makes me tremble sometimes....

do venture on the public transportation system in in the Delhi-Gurgaon sector twice a day ( one way - 2 hrs) ....

it brings to the fore - certain feelings that I'd like to keep dormant... the urge to bitch-slap the mother-fu***** who wants to step all over me, the guy who thinks he can cram his fat ar** into a set for 2 when two of us are already sitting there.

the sign says "no smoking" - but he has to puff on his beedi...

the need to abuse atthe slightest irritation - fu**it - you are not the only one who has had a bad day....

i do believe one of these days - i am gonna seriously do some kick-ass talking - literally!!

Yes - I am angry. This is not the cathartic experience I was hoping for.
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Awaiting Destiny

Tuesday, December 05, 2006
This was written last friday.. before Supriya came to town....It turned out just right!!

It’s an early Friday evening…. Barely past 9 on the night clock.
I’m home – sipping my breezer spiked with some rum.
The folks are downstairs – busy with their daily activities.
Dad watches the news as mom serves dinner. Tina is busy clearing her plate, waiting to go back to her place.
There is an air of restlessness…. somewhere….

We re all waiting!!!

Supriya is coming tomorrow…
I’d love to say that only I was awaiting her arrival. But things have changed. We are now a larger family – 3 members more… 1 in a more direct manner of speaking. Ma and Pa are still in Kolkata. I’ll see them at Christmas. 3 weeks to go for that one.

For now – we await Supriya – my destiny… our destiny.

She doesn’t have a clue how she’s changed my life. I am no good at expressing it to her. 28 years of obsession with oneself is melting away – one second at a time. Some call it maturity. I call it the “S” effect!!

I think of not one – but two people in every action I perform. I’m even more careful crossing the road now. There are traces of that “singledom” which are not easy to get rid of…..but I’m getting there.

The whole family is now upstairs… they’re in the dancing mood.. as dad watches on and mom-Tina throw a hip….!! Yeah – Saturday night should be rocking.. she’ll be here…….and we’ve got 2 weeks of catching up to do
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shopping time....

Monday, December 04, 2006
So much of choice!!!
One poor damsel - in distress - cos' nothing seems right
The poorer "Knight in not-so-shining armour" waiting .... yeh trial room ka darwaaza kab khulega??? Posted by Picasa
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Sh** on the face

Thursday, November 30, 2006
That's what some of us really deserve.
We erect big statues - out in the open - to honor those that have led us...

  • These big erections are exposed to the vagaries of nature - we're ok with that.
  • Birds come and perform excretions on the heads of our "ESTEEMED" leaders - we're ok with that.
  • Some stupid ass goes and puts a shoe there - we go to town killing each other.

Is this what we've become - 60 years after independence....?

I don't blame the politicians.... they will take advantage wherever and whenever they can. I don't blame the poverty stricken youth who have no other outlet for their repressed anger.

I blame myself... I blame you - the "educated" youth who do nothing to stop this. I blame the intelligentsia of this 1 billlion strong man-machine for not getting it's footwear right.

We're a bunch of losers - no wonder - we get our asses kicked!!!

Yes - as some of my friends have pointed out - this is strong.. we need some strong medicine here anyways...
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Casino Royale - a must watch!!

Monday, November 20, 2006
I watched Casino Royale on Friday night. First day - night show!!

This is one heck of a film. It flows with energy. James Bond (for a change) is a man capable of mistakes, capable of getting hurt, and he's strong. Yep - those muscles actually ripple...
Daniel Craig is good. I mean really good. All my initial skepticism was replaced with respect for this versatile actor. He's got a lot of emotional depth and a dark side too.

They've switched from the earlier special effects intensive films to this - a more believable version. This is a film that downplays giimckery in favour of meat and substance.

The Bond ladies do not disappoint either. Eva Green is an eclectic mix
of beauty and brain. She would do better he she hammed a little less.

Last word:
This is the real thing.
Go and watch it.
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Wednesday, November 15, 2006
When did I realize I was God?

Well, I was praying and suddenly I realized that I was talking to myself
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As Calvin says...

Monday, November 13, 2006
Some people are pragmatists, taking things as they come and making the best of the choices available.
Some people are idealists, standing for principle and refusing to compromise.
And some people just act on any whim that enters their heads.

I pragmatically turn my whims into principles!
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Marital jitterations

Saturday, November 11, 2006
holy crap.. i'm getting jittery reading all these marriage jokes......

Shaadi par wife boli: Aap mere PRANNATH aur mein apke CHARNO KI DASI.
Shaadi ke baad wo ho gaya CHARANDAS aur wo hogayi PRANO KI PYASSI.
meri to soch soch ke hi vaat lagreli hai baap!!

What is Marriage?
1 year:-Alpenlibe-Ji lalchaye rahaNaJaye.
2 year:- KINETIC-Sabki hawaNikal de.
arrey the marriage is still 5 months away....

Santa: Darling, years ago u had a figure like Coke bottle.
Jeeto: Yes darling I still do, only difference is earlier it was 300ml now it's 1.5 ltr.
I know some things will change....

After a quarrel, a husband said to his wife, "You know, I was a fool when I married you."
She replied, "Yes, dear, but I was in love & didn't notice."
Someday we will argue like this too

There was this guy who told his woman that he loved her so much that he would go thruogh hell for her. They got married and now he is going thru hell.
I have sinned... no pardons for me

Here's to my bride: she knows everything about me, yet loves me just the same.
Yeah - this is definitely true...
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Friday, November 10, 2006
The reason they call it the American dream is because you have to be asleep to believe it.... :-)

I couldn't help but note this from George Carlins book titled "BRAINDROPPINGS".

Just think about it - at some level - this man has hit the nail on the head. Some of the PHOREN craze has died out now - I mean it's not as strong as it was say 10 years back. But still I see youngsters - eager to get out of India for the world at large. Why don't they go to Africa or South America (other than to watch Samba) ? Why is it always US of A??

Maybe they need sleep....
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Being Myself

Wednesday, November 08, 2006
I am me.
Call me arrogant... call me me a cold block of stone.
I really don't care.

For the present - my world revolves around me.
Making you happy - makes me happy.
I see that smile and I start to smile. Somewhere it all comes down to that last point about being happy with oneself.

I am happy in my committed state. I was happy when I was single. I was also happy in the relationships that I had.

I did what needed to be done - what worked for me at that point in time. If in the process, people said I was being flexible or attentive or caring and loving - so be it.

I gave and I did not expect - something a wise man taught me when I was younger. So I don't carry scars.
I can meet any of my past girl friends with a straight face and clean mind. When I screwed up - I have said sorry too.

Someone told me once - you're empathetic.. yes I am - because it made me feel nice to be close to someone. Empathy and understanding helped me make a friend.

When I would get back home these last few years - I was alone. I'm ok with that. I have no problems in going and seeing a movie all by myself or doing some shopping for the house.

I like to have parties - they bring people together. Seeing them together - makes me happy. So I do it.

I can listen to everyone - but the actions will follow from my internal analysis. I will not follow for the sake of it with my eyes closed.

I have faith in the lord - but that too is an internal manifestation. I don't visit temples normally - but in Sep I went to Mata Vaishno Devi. I was comfortable intrnally. That comfort level cannot be imposed externally.

I do not take easily to having decisions imposed on me.
That's just being myself.
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Saturday, November 04, 2006

Supriya and Me...
our ONE online pic :-) Posted by Picasa
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Friday, November 03, 2006
Think about it - we call Mahatma Gandi - desh ke Daddy (aka father of the nation)
So Pyarelal - her brother and secretary to MrMKG was the original MAMU.. everyone can call hum uncle. He is the first UNCLE of the nation!!

Wonder what Munnabhai would say to that??
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The Tattoo

Friday, November 03, 2006
I thought about it.
Then decided against it...!!

First I pay the guy
He gives me pain.
He draws on my body too..
Then I realize it's not washable!!

If I wanna remove it... again I pay the guy.
again he gives me pain...!!
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Wednesday, November 01, 2006
Have you evr paid attention to the large volume of information flowing around us - in the form of radio waves???
It's there - right now...and all the time!!!

If We were to start counting the sources..
  1. FM radio
  2. AM Radio
  3. VHF
  4. UHF
  5. Cellphones
  6. Faxes
  7. Shortwave
  8. Television
  9. Satellite transmissions
  10. TV transmissions
  11. telemetry
  12. radar
  13. the government - the military - the police- the media...

Zillions of elements adding to the air pollution around us - stop blaming the poor factories all the time.

The poor "air "- just imagine how busy it has become of late...

All this wasn't around a 100 years ago - jus6t imagine how peaceful it was?

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Is it fair?

Saturday, October 28, 2006
Yes - There is a right to equality enshrined in our constitution.

Yes - injustice towards the fairer gender is still highly prevalent.

Yes - we need litigation in the civil arena - rather than restrict it to only the criminal arena - an act targeted towards Domestic Violence is essential!!

But this is a little over the top. I personally, have the deepest respect for women - but I am not in the mood to accept lying down - a law that is not balanced.

The Act covers women, be they wives, live-in partners, sisters, mothers, mothers-in-law or any other woman relation.
The new law protects them against:

Physical violence
For example: Beating, slapping, hitting, biting, kicking, punching, pushing, shoving or causing bodily pain or injury in any other manner.
Sexual violence, including against children
Forced sexual intercourse
Forces you to look at pornography or any other obscene pictures or material
Any act of sexual nature to abuse, humiliate or degrade you, or which is otherwise violative of your dignity or any other unwelcome conduct of sexual nature
Child sexual abuse
This part of the law was overdue. I agree it was required. Nobody wants to subject a woman - in any role, to Physical/Sexual violence

Verbal and emotional violence
Name calling

Accusations on your character and conduct etc

Insults for not having a male child
Insults for not bringing dowry etc
Preventing you or a child in your custody from attending school, college or any other educational institution
Preventing you from taking up a job, forcing you to leave your job
Preventing you or a child in your custody from leaving the house
Preventing you from meeting any person in the normal course of events
Forcing you to get married when you don't want to marry
Preventing you from marrying a person of your own choice
Forcing you to marry a particular person of his/their own choice
Threat to commit suicide
Any other verbal or emotional abuse
This is where the doubts start building towards the archaic fashion that the lawmakers have designed this new law. The honorable minister -Renuka Chowdhary, described it as a DIWALI GIFT. I have marked certain areas which give ambiguity a new name and leave avenues open to mischief.
Where's my protection if I have an argument with my partner?
So they both verbally abuse each other in the course of an argument - it's the man who goes to jail? This is a load of crap.
Who're the lawmakers to start telling us how to talk to another person?
If I call a man a cheater - no big deal. the moment I tell the same to a woman - it becomes a crime!! Who decides what is abuse?

Economic violence

Not providing you money for maintaining you or your children
Not providing food, clothes, medicines etc for you or your children
Stopping you from carrying on your employment or disturbing you in carrying on your employment
Not allowing you to take up an employment or taking away your income from your salary, wages etc A woman has a right to her husbands income - then why not vice versa? Today women earn equally if not more than many men. I do believe this law is essential , but needs to be tempered to meet the current conditions we live in.
Forcing you out of the house you live in
Stopping you from accessing or using any part of the house. So he has a room in the house that he's paid for where he needs a lil peace from her nagging. What then??
Not allowing use of clothes, articles or things of general household use
Not paying rent if staying in a rented accommodation. If the man and woman are both earning - then the law needs a modification.

I'm sure our law-makers have given it a lot of thought as they introduced this new law. But they have to a better job of educating the enforcers & prevent misuse. Trust me - this time, it won't be the men doing the misuse.
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Saturday rambling

Saturday, October 28, 2006
I hate working on Saturdays.
I hate admitting the fact that I'll probabaly be doing it for at least the next decade.

Saturdays are not made to be worked on.

But i'd rather sit at my office desk than be pushed around doing household chores.
I'd like to spend my saturday under the palm trees, swinging in a hammock as the light breeze blows, drinking beer reading my book or playing computer games. I could even be amenable to doing shopping (just once a year - around my birthday) if I didn't have to pay the bill(s) and we kept the dress trials to the trial room while I checked out the latest in gadgetry.

Saturday evening is strictly party time - booze,dance & Just the One woman (Ha ha - you thought i'd write something incriminating here) Alternately - we could do a movie once a month ona asaturday evening with just the two of us - and the candle light dinner to follow.. but that's a maximum of once a month!!!

Everything we do in relationships has some kind of payoff for us. Even when we do "unselfish" things, it bolsters our image of ourselves as kind, caring human beings.
When we take into account what effect choices will have on others, we become better aware of what consequences our choices will have.
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Stop thinking - Just write

Thursday, October 26, 2006
So I read a lot about what my fellow & feline bloggers write.

I like reading their ramblings.... some wild..some outrageous... but they somehow help take my mind off the daily chores that life throws my way. They write as it flows....

I do my bit of writing - I too, write as it flows - but try as I might - rambling doesn't come easy. That only happens when I try replying to Amandeep and Vandana at the same time. They'd look at me and play that serious "know it all" look and I know - it'd be time for Arjun to shut trap.

Today I was given a whole big lecture on caring and sharing. Yeah yeah my marriage is due for April... so mom and dad make it a point to drill some sense into me. I asked them if someone had said the same things to them. Apparently their generation had more maturity... so they say. I'm possssive about my books,my DVDs, my gadgets... hey who shares those... those are a part of my space...

My fiance has told me not to put her name in any of my writings and I shall oblige her on that point. But she's so much a part of my life that not writing about her - would leave any piece incomplete. She's so full of life - sometimes it scares me if I can match up. Then again - she makes a living with her arguments... I 'm never gonna win any of those - I know. But I shall persevere...

hasta la vista bab(ies)!!

This is my try at doing a daily ramble!!!
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Putting Acronyms to life

Wednesday, October 25, 2006
If only we could.... abbreviate everything we did...

As life turns out - SITCOMs
Single Income, Two Children, Oppressive Mortgage

This girl I met one time - BTDTGTS
Been There, Done That, Got The T-shirt

The QA Team (wherever you go) - CYA
Cover your ass

Going in for a review meeting - FYSBIGTBABN
Fasten Your SeatBelts It's Going To Be A Bumpy Night

Playing GOD sometimes - IMHEIUO
In My High Exalted Informed Unassailable Opinion

Watching Baywatch - IWSN
I want sex now

How it turns out - JAFO
Just Another F***ing Onlooker

The Politicians we meet - LOPSOD
Long On Promises, Short On Delivery

Love You With All My Heart

When I'm talking - MIHAP
May I Have Your Attention Please

If I were Bisexual - NTTAWWT
Not That There's Anything Wrong With That

Rita Tiwari - PEBCAK
Problem Exists Between Chair And Keyboard

Some Kids today - SNERT
Snotty Nosed Egotistical Rotten Teenager

Stuck at work - ZZZ
jeezz... you don't have to be a scientist to get that one
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Raising Atlantis

Tuesday, October 24, 2006
This is not a philosophical post.
It's about a book I read today.

Authored by Thomas Greanias, this is one edge of the seat thriller - right upto the end. Maybe I'm a sucker for such mythic Sc-fi thrillers.
But this one delivers pumped up adrenaline as promised.

It makes a good read if you're familiar with the legend of the lost city of Atlantis. This fable - deeply etched across most of our ancient civilizations is resurrected once again.

If there's anything common about all Atlantean tales - it's the use of the Pyramids of Egypt, the lost Mayan civilization and the mysteries of the areas around the South Pole as a means to explain something beyond normal comprehension.

The author goes to great lengths building up the characters, blending in multiple storylines and providing a heady mix of scientific fact coupled with folklore and prophecies of what might be.
It's his first novel - and rest assured - I'll be buying the next one when it comes out.
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Stepping ahead

Wednesday, October 18, 2006
I keep treading the path that's laid out for me - shaped as it is by Destiny!!!
It'll be interesting to see where this one goes.

This is not my seat - it's my brother's cabin - who also happens to be the director of the company.
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The DOR of our lives

Tuesday, October 03, 2006
That's hindi for string.
A string which when strung, connects and binds.

It's also the name of a film that I was fortunate to watch this weekend.
Directed by Nagesh Kukonoor (Hyderabad Blues, Rockford) and starring Ayesha Takia, Gul Panag and Shreyas Talpade - I thought it'd be a bore. This despite Avinash's claims to the opposite.

It is quite a film and everything fits in quite effortlessly.
Ayesha is no longer the bimbette of her earlier films; Gul is a revelation and Shreyas proves that Iqbal, his first film wasn't a fluke.

The story revolves around 2 young couples - from different worlds. They lead two seemingly different strings of life. Then the weaves of time bring these 2 threads together to create a situation that is difficult to describe. One man is dead. The other is accused of the crime. His wife must find the widow and seek her forgiveness which will spare him the capital punishment. It's a complex situtation.

How does one approach the bereaved widow for forgiveness for the slayer?
How does one let go of the pain and the anger and do the right thing?
What is the right thing?
Does a widow lead the life that is chosen for her - or does she do it her way?

It's not just about doing one's own thing. It's about responsibility for our actions as well.

This movie is definitely worth a watch!!
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Beat that!!!

Wednesday, September 20, 2006
Yes - That's pure adrenaline, pure excitement!!! And it's running wild!!!
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intensive scare

Wednesday, September 20, 2006
Sitting in the intensive care lobby of the apollo hospital, every second feels like an hour.
There is something about hospitals that scares, disarms and leaves me helpless like a leaf in a storm. The effect is all the more pronounced when it's a near & dear one who is suffering. In this case it's my pa. His is a heart condition which required a major surgery. That's done now.
We've been here for over fifteen days now. A few more days they say. But it feels so far away.
Friends and close relatives provide solace. Yet it doesn't do anything to lower the hearts pace.
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Burnt bridges

Monday, September 04, 2006
Friends all tried to warn me
But I held my head up high
All the time they warned me
But I only passed them by
They all tried to tell me
But I guess I didn't care
I turned my back and
Left them standing there

All the burning bridges that have fallen after me
All the lonely feelings and the burning memories
Everyone I left behind each time I closed the door
Burning bridges lost forevermore

Somewhere, this song rings a bell - a big church bell.
I should listen to my friends more often!!!
They only mean well :-)
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In absentia..

Sunday, August 27, 2006

Life - as it is - WITHOUT A GIRLFRIEND

  1. You can stare at any Girl....... ( actually we do it all the time - no matter the marital status)
  2. You don't have to spend money on her. (you can always go dutch)
  3. You won't get boring result in ur papers.
  4. Having a girlfriend is hot, not having a girlfriend is automatically cool, and every one to be a cool guy loves . ( but then you're constantly lusting for the hot babes with the cooler guys)
  5. This can be more to life than just waiting for the bloody phone to ring
  6. You won't have to tolerate someone else defining, "right" and "wrong" for u.
  7. Girlfriend can get so possessive that you can't do anything according ur wishes anymore.
  8. You can buy gifts for mom, dad, sis or grandpa instead of a girlfriend and have a happier family life.
  9. You won't have to waste paper writing love letters.No more endless waiting for ur date to arrive at some weird shop\place
  10. You can have more friends, as u will have more time for them (but they'll be busy with their girls... and you're not ingvited cos you're single)
  11. You wont have to tell lie to anybody and, therefore, u'll sin less.
  12. You can have good night's sleep-no need to dream about her.
  13. You wont have to fight over having a 'special' friend with ur folks.
  14. No nonstop nonsense.
  15. You wont have drown in the pool of her tears.
  16. No more tension.
  17. You can be "urself" (as jerky as always)
  18. You wont have to hide your telephone bills... (or the phone with all those SMSes)

    So Try to AVOID Girl Friends in your Life...!
    Who am I trying to kid.... I'm the one getting married :-)
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After the sunset...

Wednesday, August 16, 2006
Shahrukh Khan and Preity Zinta... hot stars.. great chemistry onscreeen....

A chronology of their on-screen love story ....

Her first film.. their first together.
They are engaged to be married... Manisha intervenes and love story goes bust

They fall in love again.
He has a congenital heart defect... dies before anything useful can of it

An epic love story spanning 22 years... he keeps silent.. she does too.
They are united at an age .. when sunsets are all that's left of it.

They are actually married in this one.
I presume they did the sunset walk prior to the marriage.
He finds Rani... marriage breaks... no so happy ever after.

They say true love mean - walking off into the sunset... hand in hand!!!
All their films would beg to differ!

Obviously these two need to do a film... where the happily ever after .. happens at the right time.
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Bonds that bind

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Ties that are not necessarily of blood.. yet are stronger than that..
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If I were a movie

Monday, August 07, 2006
Erotic Thriller

You've made your own rules in life - and sometimes that catches up with you.
Winding a web of deceit comes naturally, and no one really knows the true you.

Your best movie matches: Swimming Pool, Unfaithful, The Crush
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Monday, August 07, 2006
Your Monster Profile

Merciless Cannibal

You Feast On: Hot Dogs

You Lurk Around In: Corn Fields

You Especially Like to Torment: Vegans
This is scary..huh
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Hitch unhitched

Sunday, August 06, 2006
I watched "Hitch" again. That film never ceases to amaze.
Every viewing throws up some learning.

First time:
Will Smith is the hero - he is supposed to get the heroine.. he is honest - so he does.

Second time:
No point in planning anything fancy. All plans fall by the wayside!!
Be aware of the need to feel miserable - as Albert puts it. Then tell her.

Third time:
Be aware...
Be honest...
Be spontaneous...
Then jump off the cliff... cos' if you believe that she can make you fly..... you'll never drop like a stone!!
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The adventures of Pappi Singh

Sunday, August 06, 2006
Picture this:
11PM on a Saturday night.
The location is Ricks at the Taj Mansingh in New Delhi.
All the glitterati are there.

Enter : Pappi Singh in pink and white. Mrs. newly married Pappi Singh is also with him. She’s in white and pink.

She proceeds to sit in a corner and catch up on some yuppie conversation. He heads to the bar and loads up on Margaritas.
The music is loud, makes you wanna shake a leg and you look around. Nobody else seems to be dancing – they’re looking for someone to start.

Arrive PJ : “Pappi Jackson” (aka pappi Singh with double margarita)
He proceeds to show us all the moves. They form a big circle and he boogies in the middle.

Our gang has christened him EPS : energized Pappi Singh ….. Some of his friends (males) join in the circle and we now see him in a role, later known as GPS: Gay Pappi Singh.

Mrs. Pappi Singh has had enough….she enters the fray – her man is hers – not another man’s. We now see the HEP avatar, aka “Hyper excited Pappi”. They do the boogie very well.. she stands and he's all over...!! You gotta give him this much - he has energy!

One man – so many roles… truly a Shakespearean experience… seeing 7 ages of man played out in one stage setting !!
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A new challenge

Thursday, August 03, 2006

Approaching new challenges - with ambition and patience.
(Yeah - i know the patience bit doesn't come across too easily in those eyes)
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The next Move

Wednesday, July 26, 2006
Where to???
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The question

Wednesday, July 12, 2006
Almost a month... nothing to write home about.
In some ways i've had an uneventful month (damaged knee included)

In more ways than i can express, things have changed.
I know myself now.
I now what i want.
I know what makes me whole.

All i have to do is ... get to Mumbai.. and ask her.......
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The weaves of time

Sunday, June 25, 2006
"The wheel weaves as the wheel wills"
Those are not my words. They come from Robert Jordan in his epic series, "The wheel of time". The story of good versus evil - already spanning 11 novels and growing.
I hold those words very close to my heart. Our lives are but threads in the pattern that is woven with time. Sometimes we can choose the intertwining of that pattern. Other times we are drawn into it, to be woven as destined.
The Wheel of time turns, and ages come and pass leaving memories that become legend, then fade to myth, and are long forgot when that age comes again. The circle of clife goes on and we rarely remember that which we have been through.
If only we could. Then the learning would not go to waste.

I look at the threads of time - of the threads that have been interwoven with mine for a while and then gone their own way. I used to grieve when threads went astray.
Today I accept it, as a part of the pattern.
For a little while, the pattern weaves its way around us. We can make demands of it - at this point in time; then, when it has used us - things return to normal!!
We are pawns again.

I have this recurring dream. A dream where I fight evil, strike down oppressors and usher in peace. What happens after that peace is a mystery. It reflects in the way I approach my life. From one fire to another. I love crisis - not created by me and aim to bring order there. Then when the fire is over and done with - I feel the weights of monotony bearing down on me. I find peace difficult to bear. It's always a war inside of me. I need a challenge - always.

As I heard a wise man say - I feel the weight of a peaceful present bearing down on me!!!
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Building the army

Monday, June 12, 2006
The demands of war ( the kind of work we're doing right now - justifies the term) on both the leader and the army are quite different. To engage in true military conflict I see the following points to be kept in mind.
  1. They have to know they are an army and I am the general
  2. Awareness that there is an enemy who is a danger to the entire ecosystem :-)
  3. Readiness to die for the cause. (This is not the literal intention)

But it's like I'd tell my boss - "You want loyalty? Get a dog."

So why should they be ready to die for the cause? And what if that cause is me?

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Burning the midnight oil

Monday, June 12, 2006
Tired...exhausted...befuddled.. that's my current state of mind.

I'm writing in after a long time - almost 12-13 days. It's been awhile.
The reason being the never- ending work deadlines that i've been trying to mee over the last fortnight. It's not been easy. And except for a few - i missed most.

There's only so much that is physically possible. I tried more than that. Gave it my best shot.
Got my team to give it more than their best shot. They say your sins catch up with you. So a case of "not up to the mark- project management" comes back to haunt me.

I hate being second best. I play to win. Then again - a general is only as goood as his army.
It's not about how many people are on my team. Sometime they're an army. Sometimes they are not. It depends on the task I guess.
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Catching up with Mary M

Tuesday, May 30, 2006
I got to see it he first weekend that it was released in this country. The film is definitely a must-watch. No questions about that.. It is a faithful representation of the book. But as they say – “never judge a book by it’s film”. The truism holds true for this adaptation too.

The Da Vinci code was written first, as a book – to be read and re-read. The film- an accurate visual depiction fails where the book excels. The statement on history and it’s implications. The priory and their customs – we imagined them over and over. These become passing scenes in a film where mystery is laid bare.

The actors earn their pay ably. Tom hanks as the middle aged professor with a penchant for history. The very French Ms.Neveu and Silas. Silas’ passion is something that I got from the film. His intensity is definitely worth the watch.

Somehow – I came away from the film with a disappointment. The fact is that expectations reduce joy. Maybe – it’s difficult to recreate the enormity of the situation onscreen.

I’ll just read the book…again!!!
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Pensive mulling

Sunday, May 28, 2006
Putting the pieces together!!
Clarity in the fog

Lights in the distance
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Tuesday, May 16, 2006
I went numb - as the luggage & me along with it - were thrown out on the road. Every word I said - no ill feeling did it contain - but it only got me a whacking - something unexpected!!!

She is a nice girl - but today - she was ony fgood at talking down to me. If at so late an hour my temper is frayed - I did keep it from her. But all I got in response was - goddamn!!!

I should hate her for it - but it seems like I've given her the right - so bear it I must.
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Continued from the last one...

Saturday, May 13, 2006
Despite the rising cost of living, have you noticed how it remains so popular!!

Sepia returns...
The heat gets stifling. She grabbed a hold of me and we moved off the dance floor. The balcony it was. Dark eyes, shining orbs that light up my day - gazed in my direction. The match happened and an embrace ensued.

"Get you b**tts in here people, he's kissing the bride". A slight embarassment - more depair as the embrace broke and we returned to the ehated room. It was true. he was kissing the bride. He had a right too. She was after all, his son's wife. A late marrage at the age exceeding two score. thre journey to true love had been long. It had been longer in recognizing the feelings for what they were. She was a patient lady holding on to the thread of love till it culminated. She was a tad younger than him - also a bit on the wider side - especially when it came to the smile.

This was one happy family. She held my hand and looked askance. I looked back at her and replied in the affirmative. We snuck out of the room and into another. She was warm as we held each other tight. There was the mystery of repitition, as a scene... done before , was enacted.

The faded and ruffled bedsheet is still there. It lies unhindered by the dust and the flies, regal and inviting to a task unfinished. It is ironic that the folds and ruffles created by the loving duo remains unruffled. Memories in black & white, shades of grey and starry nights.

The circle of life continues... one day we will seek out the place for the third time..!!
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Revisiting Memories

Saturday, May 13, 2006
We move on from my last post on the occurrence of Deja Vu. Humans have a tendency to seek out a place for the Second time ... as we understand "Discovery" again.
So many things - unchanged - right there, where they'd been left... untouched.
A stationary table, settling dust, footprints in the dust, as the sunlight creeps in from the broken ventilator. A half-empty bottle of rum lies on one side , two glasses , where we'd left them. Her lipstick still glistens on the glass rim as it lies onits side.
Some good memories return and the room lightens up. The sepia toned flashback starts and the laughter echoes. Hearts bat faster and the energy starts flowing afresh. We were here a few months ago - not so far back in the past as you would imagine. The room was full as the warm bodies moved in & out of it. Light Latino music played - its melody lost in the din that was us.
The music stops awhile as an announcement is made and the champagne flows. We stand in one corner - watching the human element of this celebration. She's not much of a wine person - not much of an alcohol person actually. But like I just told her - today, one cocktail can't hurt.
A light Bacardi cocktail it is. Bahama mam they call it. An interesting concoction of rum laced with pineapple juice and coconut liqueur. Added a lil coffee to keep the eyes open. This is going to be a long night . We know that - unsaid words, just a gut feel.
The dance starts up and we get caught in the rhythm of it. Her hand whips past and brushes against her glass. It rolls over to the side as I rush in to save the day and prevent breaking glass. The spilt rum stains the cloth covering the table... it spreads out!!
The sunlight illuminates the dust particles as they rejoice at the opened door. Freedom at last - i hear them say. They float past the balcony , stop for a moment at the handrails - peer over the top and continue their journey. My mind and myself - we accompany them to the exit.
Sepia returns.
"Time is the best teacher. Unfortunately it kills all its students"
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Deja Vu

Monday, May 08, 2006

As an adult, I have often known that peculiar legacy time brings to the traveler: the longing to seek out a place a security time, to find deliberately what we stumbled on once before, to recapture the feeling of discovery.

Sometimes we search out again even a place that was not remarkable in itself- we look for it simply because we remember it.

This place need not be a geographical location on the earth's surface.

It could well be within our heart.

Whst happens when we find it?

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Thrashing out issues

Monday, May 08, 2006
Arguments happen between even the happiest and best-suited couples. And so they should.
Nothing like a good row to clear the air and let off the steam.

But don't bust the pressure cooker - that's all I can say. Thgen i began to wonder how that was possible. It came down to a few points that would work for me...

1 Don't lose your temper. Yep- even during a row -it would be a good idea to take a time out rather than strike out.

2 Personal insults won't help. It doesn't mattre that he/she is a nicompoop. Don't tell em that. It takes the focus of the issue on hand.

3 Stay focused on the reason. Need I say more.

4 Force yourself to stay specific. Don't start the - you never do this or you always do that thing.

5 Don't say 'I hate you'. Remember - you love the person.

6 No Alcohol and arguing.

7 Don't interrupt. Listen & speak.

8 Don't end up arguing about arguing.

10 Say sorry when you need to. It won't hurt - actually!!!

Then it's time to make up , reconfirm your love for each other and cuddle.
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Is it true?

Thursday, May 04, 2006

This is something about girlfriends that comes to mind. Wonder what they'd think about it?

Would she ever manage to be friends with the woman who was my first partner?

Would she like to help me choose her surprise gift?

Did she ever wanna marry george michael ?

Would she ever tell me if I wasn't good enough?

Would she stalk me, given half the chance?

Is she offended if another person is wearing the same perfume as she?

Does she like being lifted off the ground ?
(i know this display of affection has been flogged to death theatrically -but I hope it works)

What would she do if ex-girlfriend relics are discovered in my house?

Am I allowed to be good friends with all her friends - gender no bar?

Does she believe in Valentines day?

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Civilization - the word

Sunday, April 30, 2006

At the very basic level - the word civilization has a definition. Loosely used, it'd talk about an area, group or period. These parameters would be distinguished, in the mind of the person using the term, by striking continuities in ways of life, thought & feeling.

There was a term that I ran into a while back - collective self-differentiation. This is as much a verb as it is a noun.
Those groups of people having progressed from the Verb usage to the noun application are termed as civilized. Somehow - this word, defies a clear definition.
Come to think of it - it is easier to define “a civilization” as compared to “civilization”.

“Has it ever struck you - that civilization's damned dangerous?”

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Tell me why

Sunday, April 30, 2006

Lead me on…don't tell me where - just hold my hand.
Take me someplace - where you smile; that's my destination.
I close mine eyes to see you smile.
Pull the blanket closer - to feel your embrace

But you're not there.
Just a memory & a hope.

Destiny is like a river - it chooses for itself.
We, our affairs - merely rocks that choose to change the flow.
So it is not to be - the way ahead, as we'd ordained.

I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do - about you now.
It's official now, that the fires are out - burnt embers remain. I attempt to gather the pieces of this heart. Too many to start counting or putting back.
One jigsaw puzzle - that I will document and leave for posterity.

Maybe someday - you'll tell me why!!!

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A month - I remember

Saturday, April 29, 2006

Staring at the open door…
Wishing someone would come in - or the very least close it for me.

The outside is bright and shiny. It is dark in here.
It is akin to a tunnel and its accompanying ray of light that beckons forward.

The pain has aged by 1 month yesterday. A month to the date that she cut me loose to go her way. It has been a month of aimless wandering on my part- sometimes here, sometimes there.
I tried everything to take my mind of her. But nothing seems to work. Our communication lines are still open. It's only the nature of communication that has changed.

As Diana Ross said, "You can't just sit there and wait for people to give you the golden dream. You've got to get out there and make it happen for yourself."
I try- sometimes too hard - sometimes not at all. But my feelings don't seem to be taking me anywhere.
Her latest SMS - "I want you to stop this. Keep dreaming, keep thinking or not thinking whatever, but please don't message me these things anymore. Please."
I have to stop myself from analyzing this… else the head - poor head - he gets screwed up.

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Pride of India

Tuesday, April 18, 2006
This is something I saw on my vacation last week, in Mussoorie.
I always believed it - now it's a fact!!!

The text in Hindi(vernacular name) - says ARJUN!!

What say folks???

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Jokes apart

Sunday, April 02, 2006

I promised myself that I would be strong.
Behind that tough persona - lies a vulnerable heart. It hurts.

So I have decided to keep my feelings within. That which is not to be expressed - will no longer be expressed. Tina says I shouldn't be so expressive. It only gives away the feelings within. Warm feelings and cold atmosphere makes for a corrosive mixture. And you thought Sulphuric Acid was bad!!!

A mouthful of sky - that's all my heart ever wanted. I really haven't asked much more than that. A prayer for the living - a prayer for me - all I want is a prayer.
Sometime prayers remain unanswered… until the time they're supposed to be heard.
One day - the prayer will be mine - when the temple bells ring and the vermillion powder fill the narrow confines of mindspace.

Till then… the thoughts shall remain confined.

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The last one

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

this is my last blog entry....
Hasta la manana amigos y amigas....

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Complex Women

Wednesday, March 22, 2006
These things happen - when time is at hand - there is loads of work to do - but better sense prevails.

Trust me - the response from both sides of the fence has been quite interesting.

Yeh sab asatya gyan mat failao prani...!!
Men are more complicated than women.
(now this is age talking)

women are complicated...just teh way men can be a wee bit dense and insensitive at times...:-)
(this is experience)

As the saying goes "Behind every successful man there is a woman." the male in the cartoon would have never known that he could come up with something as brilliant as this had the female responded to his questions in the initial attempts :)
(Deep thought being applied here)

(umm... left us speechless on that)

Well ...............I think men should be sensitive to the fact that women are sensitive................................:)
(very very sensitive...)

The female walrus/seal has a point in being offended I say!

RAJIV - in response to ANKU
As the saying goes "Behind every successful man there is a woman."
I would just like to respond to this by saying that “BEHIND EVERY SUCCESSFUL MAN THERE ARE LOTS OF WOMEN”

ANKU - vehement reply!!!
That only the man knows how many women are behind his success, but, I am sure and you will agree with me on this that the man would tell each
woman that she is the only reason for his success.
I would also like to draw your attention to another point that u do agree it is women after all who are responsible for the success of the man.
It is not about playing the blame game and getting in the gender to say that women are complicated or the men are complicated if you look at it we
as human beings are complex beings. No matter how hard we try at both our ends we always fall short of understanding each other....
If we stop blaming and really get down to being ourselves without being afraid to express I don't think this issue would remain as complicated as we make it to be.....

VANI - appreciating ANKU
Well said Anku!!

ASHA -with her 5 cents
wow...chutti ke baad toh Anku kaafi achche n gyan se bhare pravachan de rahi hai...good yaar...keep it up nJ...
n I agree wid u...

ARJUN - somewhere in the middle
So... nothing.... i bend forward and ask for forgiveness :-)

SARBANI - closing line!!!
That’s the point!
Tell You. Then explain. And then think why we took that route…
Give up.

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Something to write about

Sunday, March 19, 2006
Always looking for something to write about.
That's us - the blogger community!!

Today I have loads that to write. But I will control this impulsive heart.
It will be a good practice, moving forward.

This has been a period of surging emotions, some dead ends, some dark tunnels. But most importantly - I see the ray of light. As darkness turns to day - so also this life - I am happy!!!

No more the musings of a tortured mind desperate to escape the anguish of life. Life is here.
Right here, right now!!

"What's in a name?", so spoketh Billy boy (william shakespeare to the uneducated). A name like a prayer, a prayer for the living, so they may live - happily !!!
Jeez - I'm a total give away.

I'm quite sure - i'll have loads to write about, soon.
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Deep Observations on Life

Friday, March 03, 2006

"Relationships are hard. It's like a full time job, and we should treat it like one. If your boyfriend or girlfriend wants to leave you, they should give you two weeks' notice. There should be severance pay, and the day before they leave you, they should have to find you a temp."

Received this from a friend. Someone sure thinks right!

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Heart of Darkness

Friday, March 03, 2006

I have a dark side. But I am strong in the force. So the light prevails.

A woman I know - she talked of seeing my dark side. She said it was all pervasive and once someone got close enough, it dominated. I listened to her in silence, an impassive face I wore. It's not easy to say these things to another human - unless the emotions are extreme. Love and hate - two sides of a coin; quite interesting perspectives both!!!

This has not really been the best of my weeks. Health issues apart, my major failing has been relationships. Someone sees my dark side and walks off or someone calls me a drunk and walks off. I'm literally left staring at the sky and wondering what it was that hit me. Let me be honest - I do think both the girls were just that - girls!! I'm feeling extremely vitriolic at this point of time and just feel like lashing out. A count to 10 accompanied with some deep breathing should sort things out for the short term.

The issue still remains. What did I do wrong? They were close friends - or at least that was my perception.

Case 1: Calls me out of the office. We stand on the road. She tells me we're going no further. Se offers no reasons and I ask for none. I walk back to my seat in a daze and begin to wonder. Then this same woman comes and gives me this whole feedback about my dark side - especially after - I stay away from her - no talk - no eye contact for almost 5 days. I mean who the f*** does she think she is - Aura reader!!!

Case 2: I'm at a friend's wedding - an hour ago. I call up a friend and ask what she's up to. I thought that was a general kind of query. She asks where I'm at. I reply with the answer. I tell her I've had a few drinks cos' it's a marriage cum cocktails cum dinner. She acts real weird and tells me I'm drunk. So I say - OK, we'll talk tomorrow. I missed 2 calls since I was with the lucky couple and voila - I've been branded brain dead - with no hope of salvation. She acts weird, writes a few stupid SMSes and ends with a "I don't wanna be in touch" - like I care!!! I care enough - only to write about it. And to think that we call such women - cosmopolitan.

My sister thought both the cases were quite hilarious and we had a good laugh together. Then again - another point arises - it was about the choices I made. We are responsible for our choices and the consequences involved. You cannot be a perfect judge of character - but try and be close - cos' women will remain women (and so will men).

Life goes on. Here's to a new beginning!!

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A touch of sensibility

Monday, February 27, 2006

Every once in a while - yes - every once in a while - there are events that put you at the crossroads. I don't know if I'm at a cross-road; sure feels like that, though. OK - I accept - I am emotional, impulsive and follow the celluloid screen with a passion. But, let's not forget - that there's more where that came from.

There was a film called Baghban - it redefined my views on the parent-child relationship. I knew why I was wrong and the things I'd have to do to set them right. I'm not all the way home as yet - but I've made a start. I'm back in Delhi with the folks. Years of staying apart have changed me - it's not easy being all nice again!

Then there was Astitva - a film on the right to independence - man or woman. Space and acceptance are two very important things in a relationship. Why are things different for a man and a woman? The young ladies that I meet - fail to understand that I can think in a manner contradictory to conventionally established belief. Love is a feeling - all encompassing that needs expression. Sometimes, illicit as it sounds, that outlet is physical. My wife (if I ever marry) may not subscribe to that view. Yet - that day I will tell her- it's about maturity. Love is not necessarily physical. A physical manifestation with a person, when married to another - is a sign of immaturity or the lack of relief. The former I can understand & counsel. The latter is self explanatory. Every man admires the free bird and desires acquisition - only to cage it in the end! Oh! If they only knew the bird's beauty lay in its freedom. Women cannot accept (so easily) a man who just lets them be themselves. They feel it's a sham - designed to hasten the mating process.

Follow that up with Hazaaron Khwaahishen Aisi - the story of a generation gone by - my dad's generation. They are not classified under any particular marketing terminology as Gen X or Gen y - but they're there. They've seen the darkness of having democracy vanish, and return. I wonder if we will ever understand the value of what we have today. There was Independence in 1947. Then there was the Emergency of the 70s. A system designed to counter free thought and action. I'm not against the concept of shutting the door to the house to give the kids a spanking and set things right. But, at least hear them out. Their concerns could be valid. In this case they were more than valid. It's not about living with the system - as it exists. We have to learn to value what we have today. It did not come without a price.

Along came Rang de Basanti. A breath of fresh air. It puts on the screen - latent dreams, awakening, remembrance, a path, the light at the end of the tunnel. A new road, a new journey on display. Do I dare undertake? We all have fire within. We're only waiting for the sunrise to stoke the embers. Make your dream happen - strike a match within and light that fire. A nation of 1 Billion and we live our lives as though all is perfect. No nation is perfect - but the change has to start from the individual. Stop paying that policeman a bribe every time you get caught for breaking the traffic signal. Accept your wrongs and work to set them right. We never feel the pain of a corrupt nation - unless we suffer. Life is not all that hunky-dory. It's a spectrum and the level of grief is proportional to your place in it.
It's not about the life that was spent doing humdrum activities. The meaning of life is to give it meaning and focus. It's about a vision and making it come true. All that talk of literacy and big bucks is a whole lot of hog-wash. Today - I'm a manager in an MNC and dream of making it big there. It's my vision, my selfish dream. Owning a Mercedes - even though I don't drive - would be a symbol of - DREAM REALIZATION. It's funny that it takes a movie to make me see otherwise.
Responsibilities to my family, to me, to the people I interact with; they're all there - but there's something bigger than that - just waiting for me. I can feel it - have always done so. But it's dormant!!! I've gone with the flow for a long time.

It's time this river flowed in a direction that is useful.

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Pain @ Rs.30

Monday, February 20, 2006

I hate paying 30 bucks to travel from Okhla to Kalkaji. It's like 7-8 minutes of travel time and the buggers fleece you like it's nobody's business.

Then there is the pain of being - at the Head Office - as people - heads in the air - look upon us lower mortals.

The vegetarian lunch also costs 30 bucks @ work. It's a costly option for an upset stomach. More pain.

I need to go to mcdonalds and get a happy meal - that's the only thing that may cost sub-30.

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6 things...

Sunday, February 19, 2006

6 things that I don't do any more
Live with the folks - though they're just a few blocks down.
Drop anonymous valentine cards in the Mail boxes of beautiful women
Go on a drinking binge - very characteristic of the Engineering college
Aggressive behavior - that's just the age
Put gel on my head - the receding hairline
Crave for company - I'm not so bad by myself

6 things that I like (MOST) about women
The smile
The maternal assertiveness
Intelligence - although this should not be generalized
Inner strength
They are life givers.. a fact that none can deny
They understand me!!!

6 things that (I'm sure) she hates about me
Switching off and withdrawing into my cocoon
Sometimes I talk too much
The twin vices - Smoke over troubled water
I don't express it - every time (although it's right there)
Not getting her viewpoint sometimes
I can shed tears when in an emotionally charged state - in reel & real life!

6 to dos in the next hour
Say, “I love you to at least 6 people” (Family included)
Cook dinner
Eat it - obviously!!!
Publish this blog
Listen to good music as I cook
Wish she had told me things that she didn't like about me - rather than me take guesses at it

6 People (other than kin) close 2 me (This is the tough one - I hate to choose)

The Men
Vishal Rao
Shabbar Tambhawalla
Shyamal Gupta
John Wesley
Mallikarjun Bhat
Gautam Talwar

The Women - they never judged me!!
Manu Sareen
Ranjini Das Gupta
Sarbani Bose
Mohua Bhowal
Madhuri Bogawat

6 dreams - One just ain't enough!!
Seeing her SMILE - every morning as I awake
Raising a family of 4 kids and having enough for each
Being able to remain true to all that I believe in
Retirement at 40
Running a mile in 6 minutes at the age of 65
Being around on my parents' platinum jubilee.

6 bloggers I wanna tag.
John Wesley - for the things I get to learn there & the lucid style
The gentleman who has his blog at
Mallikarjun Bhat - for being a normal person - expressing his feelings as they come
The Denzil devil - for his youthful writing style
Crazy Sonya
Niyati - for being the Diva
Jolein - I know she writes - but doesn't tell where!!!

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The Valentino Fever

Tuesday, February 14, 2006
Yes –it’s that day again – 9 months to go for children’s day – the results will be there for all to see!!
Just kidding. (Jeez – no pun intended there!!)

So what plans for the day – that’s the question I’ve been answering for awhile? Me – I’m a simple guy – no hang-ups. So I’ll just go for lunch and come back to work. The question is with whom? Who would endure me for 90 minutes of lunchtime? I don’t stop talking (if I get started) and then boom – kapok – world goes topsy-turvy!!

So why 14th February?
The question has been around for sometime now.

Is it like – we’re welcoming spring and all the good boys, good girls and not so good people (AKA Shiv Sena & Bajrang Dal) get together for a day out in town. Paint it red – so to say.

Or maybe they had an excess production of Roses – so the marketing managers – used this as a ruse – to offload the excess production at excessive rates. This is kind of possible!!

Let’s not forget that there was a gentleman by the name of Valentine – a saint says some – who brought lovers together. He ran the 1300s version of a marriage bureau. He did this Free of cost – the only condition being a big birthday bash on his day – which was 14th Feb (what did ya expect?). He passed away – time went by and then this smart marketing manager caught on to the idea and voila!!!

So What does one do on V Day (Mistakenly known as Victory Day - turn the V around and you know what you're lookin at)

I did send messages to my friends and loved ones (why is it 'ones' when one is singular) and got their replies.. yes it made me feel good.
There is still some love around... !!!
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Canine Learnings!!!

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

You would learn stuff like...

  • When loved ones come home, always run to greet them.
  • Never pass up the opportunity to go for a joyride.
  • Allow the experience of fresh air and the wind in your face to be pure ecstasy.
  • When it's in your best interest, practice obedience.
  • Let others know when they've invaded your territory.
  • Take naps and stretch before rising.
  • Run, romp, and play daily.
  • Thrive on attention and let people touch you.
  • Avoid biting, when a simple growl will do.
  • On warm days, stop to lie on your back on the grass.
  • On hot days, drink lots of water and lay under a shady tree.
  • When you're happy, dance around and wag your entire body.
  • No matter how often you're scolded, don't buy into the guilt thing and pout - run right back and make friends.
  • Delight in the simple joy of a long walk.
  • Eat with gusto and enthusiasm. Stop when you have had enough.
  • Be loyal.
  • Never pretend to be something you're not.
  • If what you want lies buried, dig until you find it.

And MOST of all...
When someone is having a bad day, be silent, sit close by and nuzzle them gently.

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Frittering thoughts

Tuesday, February 07, 2006
To no one in particular... I don't have any problem - right now.
So why am I thinking about it?
Must be that risk mitigation that I keep practicing at work... rubs off on the way I live my life too.Maybe someone can do something about it. (actually nobody can - I just put that here to get you started thinking) Maybe u can guide me. I mean - it's worth a try.

Just a few thoughts that crossed my station.
A lot of ups and downs. Right now I'm on an up - shouldn't really be worrying about the downs. But thatwhat you gotta do to look at things before they come to you. Paranoia is the word that comes to mind here. Just have to come to grips with the fact that things always balance out at the end. That's life.

Memories remain for as long as we want them to. They help us go on as we move through the morass of life's activities. Remind us of what was, what could have been and then why the proposed solution didn't come through. Jeez - there I go - sinking into my Job again - always solutioning!!
Sometimes we go to the solution - sometimes it comes to us. I wonder which approach to benchmark. Umm.. this should keep me thinking awhile...
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What winners do

Wednesday, February 01, 2006
This something - winers do - after winning - especially in the lottery!!!
I picked up these happenings as i browsed the net at a lottery site
  • Just by chance a winner's girlfriend checked his trouser pockets before she put his jeans into the washing machine and found a jackpot winning ticket worth around £1.5 million.
  • Three lads who were out on the town were refused at a nightclub because they did not have shirts and ties. They went to an all night Tesco and bought some new shirts - with the change they bought a scratchcards and won £20,000 - they celebrated all night in the nightclub!
  • Edwin Thrasher was stony broke before he won, and one day he touched the ring that his father left him when he died, and said, "Dad, please send me some money." That afternoon he won £50,000 on a scratchcard.
  • A winner went in to a car showroom on his way back from picking up his cheque and entered a competition to win a car, the model of which he had always wanted. He actually won the car!
  • A young man, dressed in jeans, went in to a Mercedes dealership following his win - the salesmen ignored this rather ordinarily dressed young man but one of the female sales staff ended up selling him a top of the range car!
  • A man was walking under a tree and a bird pooped on him - as this is supposed to be lucky, he decided to buy a Fortune 4 scratchcards ticket and won £24.00. The following week the same thing happened, a little bird pooped on him from the same tree! So he went and bought another National Lottery Fortune 4 and won £444. He now spends time on Wednesdays and Saturday standing under that lucky tree, waiting for that little bird to...
  • Scratchcard winner, Brenda Wainwright, hired a limousine to go and collect her £50,000 winnings.
  • Jackpot winner Marjorie Longdin was so excited when she won that she forgot to take her ticket with her when she went to collect her winnings.
  • One lady was so excited about winning that she literally wanted to shout from the rooftops. Her Winners Advisor took her on to the roof of the building and let her shout "I've Won!" to the whole of Merseyside.
  • One little old lady arrived at the Regional Centre dragging an enormously long sports bag. With an expression of surprise and bewilderment she said that her sister had recommended she bring it with her for that "enormous cheque they give you".
  • Sarah Louise Wood fainted when she realised she had won £75,000 on a scratchcard - she went to collect her money with a black eye.
  • The longest celebration by winners was by a pub syndicate from London who celebrated for almost two weeks.
  • Police were called out by concerned neighbours who believed that the people living next door were being burgled due to the amount of noise. They were in fact celebrating their £2 million jackpot win.
  • Billy Gibbons renamed his chicken 'Kiev' to 'Lucky' when the faithful foul trampled on his owner's calculator, selecting five winning Lotto numbers. 'Lucky' now helps Billy pick his Lotto numbers every Saturday morning.
  • The worst celebration was a couple who went out to buy a bottle of wine after winning £1.5 million and they realised they didn't have a corkscrew.
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Ab tak chappan

Wednesday, January 25, 2006
56 years of the Indian Republic...!

I'm only half that much.

But it seems like an eternity - for those who've seen this country evolve.
Do we understand the meaning of being a republic? It's something we learned in a civics lesson in a school a very long time ago.
This generation and the one before it too - we've all gone soft!
Look up the word REPUBLIC in most any dictionary.
Most likely, you"ll find that a "republic" is a "government of elected representatives".
This is a deliberate deception.
I have an Enclycopaedia Britannica, 11th edition. This work provides the proper explanation. First it says that the idea that a republic is a government of elected representatives is a "notoriously modern interpretation". The article continues, explaining that historically, a Republic refered to a government in which the soverign held authority granted by the people and ruled according to law.

The early Nehru dynasty followed that rule as we remained firmly under their hand even though democratic elections happened in this country. They screwed this country, for the generations that were and are.
Somewhere - deep - in an inexpressible form - I am happy - that someone scared them so much - that now - they refuse to take on the realms.
We Indians - like, the russians are very "ruler" friendly. We like to be ruled. Democracy with all its merits is not the one we prefer. We prefer someone taking the decisions - just as long as its not us. That's why they also say that the last few generations lacked the killler instinct.
I have a desire to see this nation lead. More than that - my wish - if I may be so desirous - is that my countrymen awake - that they understand what Bose fought for - that they realize the value of this independence.
Every living day I wish my eyes were not hampered with a deficiency that did not permit me to join the armed services. I am not a peacenik - my calling has always been the profession that bears arms. Just so - it is something I leave for later - one day I will bear arms to serve India.
Jai Hind.
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I am because I choose to be

Monday, January 23, 2006
Yes -I create my feelings and am responsible for them.

I try to control them in a positive and purposeful way (not always - though), as i attempt to better life.

Friends (and a few wise men) say that it ain't right to blame another person for your feelings. It gives that individual control over an important part of your life. If you avoid taking responsibility for your feelings, those feelings can quickly overwhelm you and leave you powerless. This is similar to the Negative feelings I had for an ex-Lady boss of mine. She's far away now - but any thought of her - brings to the fore - a multitude of expletives. So in a way i'm a slave to something - and that ain't doing me a world of good!!

It's common knowledge that the way I feel affects every corner of my life. So it's time to take charge and not let go.

When it comes to making a choice - I know that every feeling is One I have chosen.
I may not be a soothsayer - so I dunno what else is gonna happen - but I do know that I choose to react and I choose to feel.
Feelings are powerful and can bring much richness to life (or so they say), and the power they have is the power we choose to give them.
Choose feelings wisely, and life will be rich indeed
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Expanding my perspective

Thursday, January 19, 2006
When you focus only on yourself, you severely limit your options.
( I must stop thinking of ME as a focal point of attention.)
When your thoughts are centered only on you, those thoughts cut you off from a whole world of possibilities.
(Yes - I agree - thinking about others increases the possibilities of me doing more useful stuff around the place)

It's all too easy to become frustrated, disillusioned, angry and bitter when your own perspective is the only one you consider. Your own narrow concerns can seem painfully overwhelming if you give all your attention and energy to them.
(It's definitely important for me to look at things in perspective -others'. It's like putting yourself in their shoes and then checking on whether you'd do the same things again. The fact that there are possibilties will enable my thinking to be more creative)

Pay attention to the concerns of others, and you'll gain valuable insights that otherwise would not be available to you. Think, act and live beyond yourself, and all sorts of new, positive possibilities arise.
It never hurts to smile and lighten the load of those around me. So I do.

When the concerns of your own ego fall away, an enormous amount of energy is set free. When you are no longer restricted to your own narrow perspective, a whole new set of magnificent opportunities will open up to you.
Ego is my constraint - sometimes. Just putting it aside - frees up a whole heap of mindspace

Seek to make a difference not merely for yourself but for all of life. And many of the limitations that once hounded you will suddenly be gone.
Very very true. Sometimes I do feel that One small thing done for the benefit of others - outweighs the achievements one looks at for oneself. Actually that would be a bigger achievement for me!!

Just a small step on the road to enlightenment!!!

(This is with the help of Ranit & Ralph- whose daily spiritual inputs don't go unutilized)
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Friday, January 13, 2006
People afflicted with a morbid, irrational fear of Friday the 13th.... Oh there are quite a few of those around!!!

The sixth day of the week and the number 13 both have foreboding reputations said to date from ancient times, and their inevitable conjunction from one to three times a year portends more misfortune than some credulous minds can bear.

Some Links to Friday the 13th Superstitions
Link 1
Link 2

So if you get fired from your job today, or smash up your car, you can blame it on Friday the 13th. Superstition, provides us with an excuse for explaining away our mistakes and disgraces. In other words, it's an easy way to rationalize the screw-ups for which we ourselves are ultimately responsible

But if you're scared - wait till Monday!!!
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Accepting my limitations

Thursday, January 12, 2006
I can't do everything. Nobody expects me to - either!!!
It's important for me to know what I can and cannot do
Some things are in my control, and there are other things that are not.
There are things that I can change, and there are other things that I must simply learn to live with.
I 'm trying to start accepting what I cannot do, so I free up much time and energy. This can be focussed in the direction of my success.
It's not easy being at peace with the un-doable. In fact, that very fact gnaws away at my existence. It makes me feel not up to it. A lesser man - sometimes!!
I could waste my time and energy complaining that the ocean is too deep and wide. Or I could build a boat and sail across it.

Achieving self awareness is a good start!!
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Still I persevere

Monday, January 09, 2006
So if you read my last blog entry - Mumtaz is dead - has been for 375 years!!
But we - or at least I, intend to find my Mumtaz.
I may not build her a Taj because I wish that I never had to live a day longer than she.
She will inspire; she will love; she will strike; she will engage; she will mother.
Her visage will enchant and calm.
Not for me the ones who drive a man crazy.
Shah Jahan married thrice - Akbari begum, Fathepuri begum and then Mumtaz Mahal. A fine example of 3rd time lucky.
I don't want to marry thrice and then get lucky. Knowing my luck - I'd go broke paying the alimony on the first two wives. Who could afford a third??

I take comfort from the fact that I've met several women, a few ladies and some girls. Life has taken me down many a path that I remember and deliberate the chances of success had they been pursued with the passion of the Black stallion. No regrets however - this is not an article in black!!
I visited and ran a check on the name - Mumtaz. This is what they had to say.

Your first name of Mumtaz has made you a patient, meticulous person who enjoys working in a detailed, systematic way. You are determined and deliberate in pursuing your ambitions, but you must work at your own speed. You hate to be hurried or to leave anything unfinished or untidy. Your infinite patience would allow you to develop intricate, involved skills to perfection. Often feeling burdened with work, you worry about details out of proportion to their importance.
Although the name Mumtaz creates the urge to be both logical and technical, we emphasize that it limits your versatility and scope, tuning you to technical details exclusively. This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the elimination system, which can lead to other complications

That's not my Mumtaz !!!
My search continues...
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Does Mumtaz exist today?

Monday, January 09, 2006
It's quite a valid question. I sit & ponder.
What was it that got SJ (Shah Jahan) to do his thing - I mean - build the Taj Mahal (TM).

A woman who gave him 14 kids in 18 years - only 7 survived. They must have gone at it like bunny rabbits - anytime - any place !!!
So in a matter of speaking - it is quite an impressive tribute to their monumental achievements...

Did you know that SJ wanted to make a replica of the TM in black marble across the river in what they call the Mehtab Bagh today. It came across as queer why anyone would want to make something in black. Then the Yin - Yang symbolism struck me - how black & white balance one another. There is a balance to be maintained - especially between the male and female of a species. It could also be something to do with the power of black - the symbol of death. As black symbolizes death it is also a natural symbol of the underworld and so also of resurrection. Unexpectedly perhaps, it could also be symbolic of fertility and even life! This would contrast it with the White which suggests omnipotence, purity, simplicity and sacred things.

I continue to wander about the 4 minarets - people give varying theories - mine is quite simple. They had 4 sons - the cornerstones of their achievements.
So the 4 minarets -
one of whom I almost ate up

So where does that leave Mumtaz today- quite dead actually !

The Taj - Her requiem!
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Endless tasks!!!

Monday, January 02, 2006
So much to do

I have so much to do that is seems overwhelming.
I need to stop thinking about how much there is and start getting it done.

Feeling overwhelmed is merely a state of mind that I have chosen.
And just as easily I now want to choose to let it go.

A new day, a new month, a new year dawns and it makes me feel like time is quickly slipping away.
But in fact, time comes to me just as quickly as it moves past.

And that means that each moment I get the opportunity to make a difference. Each moment, the best thing I can do is to make full and meaningful use of that moment.

That is how I will get things done. Moment by moment, little by little, small tasks build into great accomplishments, and accomplishments build into a life with real fulfillment.
I don't have to tackle everything all at once. Just do what I can, when I can, filling each moment with positive purpose and action.

And what once seemed overwhelming will quickly become a source of real and lasting fulfillment.

Or so - a wise man said!!!
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