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War and Peace

Thursday, December 29, 2005
There are no winners in war - and then when peace arrives - there are only pieces.
Pieces that need to be pieced together again.
I wish 2006 is a year of Peace - peace in the world around me - peace inside of me.
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Thoughts on the way home

Tuesday, December 27, 2005
Robert Frost composed awesome poetry when he penned down - Stopping by the woods on a snowy evening

I read this once in class X cos' it was a part of the syllabus.
Then I realized that I kinda seemed to remember it more often than the others.

Yesterday as I sat in the Cab on my way home - it struck me again.
It's like the life we lead - stopping and starting - but always going on.

Whose woods these are I think I know.
His house is in the village though;
We like to think no one is watching over us - that we are alone.

He will not see me stopping here
To watch his woods fill up with snow.
The moments that make life worth living.

My little horse must think it queer
To stop without a farmhouse near
My mind looks askance - what is it that you're waiting for? There's no one here. Why the decision to stay and mull? Does it miss the beauty of the snowflakes idling downwards? The Heart stays quite because he has all the answers.

Between the woods and frozen lake
The darkest evening of the year.
When there is no hope...

He gives his harness bells a shake
To ask if there is some mistake.
We question ourselves, question our directions, our goals, our relationships. We question our faith. Do we need to ???

The only other sound's the sweep
Of easy wind and downy flake.
Silence pervades. But Iam not alone. I have you.

The woods are lovely, dark and deep.
But I have promises to keep,
Oh Temptation..... lead me not down this path....

And miles to go before I sleep,And miles to go before I sleep.

The never-ending story - the circle of life - call it what you want.
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Santas Gifts

Monday, December 26, 2005
Well-Christmas comes around every year!
Same Date too. I have a demand or two for the Old man at the north pole, each year. Never seem to get Santas gifts the way I want'em. Still I try - even reverse psychology when I think it'll work.
Getting aggressive is one part to it. Putting the other guy on the defensive is another. I mean - it'll work in the short term - never seen it succeeding in the bigger scheme of things.

Too much knowledge can be dangerous - or as would be a better form of expression - that which is not explained could be hazardous...

How far will a man go to get what he wants. What principles will he adopt (or forego) to get that pot at the end of the rainbow?

Yes - there is no gain without the ensuing pain. Sacrifice is important.
But one sacrifice alone may not be enough - you have to persevere.
That is the key.

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Just a gust

Wednesday, December 21, 2005
Corruption. Corruption is our protection, corruption keeps us safe and warm, corruption is why we win.
( after India wins the Cricket world cup - actually uttered in the film "Syriana")

Yeah, well, what's life without a few dragons?
( as I contemplate Project Deadlines - actually uttered in the film "Harry Potter 4")

It's not like I try to blow things up!
( Osama after 9/11- actually uttered in the film "Harry Potter 4")

Hell is overflowing, and Satan is sending the damned to us. Why? God is punishing us. You have sex out of wedlock. You have man on man relations, same sex marriages. How do you think your God will judge you? Well, friends, now we know. When there is no more room in hell, the dead will walk the earth
( People complaining about their Boss- actually uttered in the film "Dawn of the Dead")

No thinking - that comes later. You must write your first draft with your heart. You rewrite with your head. The first key to writing is... to write, not to think!
( How to write a blog- actually uttered in the film "Finding Forrester")

For the first in my life, I wanted what all wise man say can't last; what can't be promised or made to linger any more than sunlight. I don't want to die without having felt its warmth on my face.
( True Love- actually uttered in the film "First Knight")

Good to see you Mr. Bond. Things have been awfully dull around here. I hope we're going to see some gratuitous sex and violence.
( Life as it is when the Dude arrives- actually uttered in the film "Never Say Never Again")

If you must resort to violence, then you've already lost
( In war, there are no winners : so let there be peace- actually uttered in the film "Rising Sun")
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69 Boring Things About Me

Tuesday, December 20, 2005
(cuz i'm not creative enough to think of a different format)

1. I'm from Himachal
2. I live in and hate Delhi
3. I'm not married
4. I have no kids
5. I don’t drive
6. I am an Engineer and an MBA – soo very boring – I thought this’d be at No.1
7. I love loud music
8. I fucking love to talk
9. And saying "fuck"
10. I love getting driven really fast
11. My right leg just fell asleep and is all tingly
12. I love sci-fi movies
13. I have been in love 5 times – that’s Love!!!
14. I went to sleep outside my door one day in August
15. I need to get a tattoo
16. I love friends like family
17. I feel things deeply. too deeply sometimes
18. I love the moon
19. I love the ocean
20. I love experiencing new things
21. I love meeting new people
22. Sometimes I act drunk when I'm not, because I enjoy life so deeply
23. I love mommy and daddy and Tina
24. I love taking long walks.
25. I love the taste of beer
26. I lost my virginity at the age of 19
27. I lost my girl friend 6 months after that – because I didn’t lose it to her.
28. I am not bitter about the way things turned out
29. I am restless
30. I am a dreamer
31. I am a daydream believer
32. I do what I have to to get things done
33. I miss my friends at LG & LB
34. I was a good student, had no enemies, many friends
35. I wish I’d dropped out of college and started Microsoft
36. I love thunderstorms with lots of lightening
37. I love rain
38. I hate shallow people
39. I am shallow sometimes
40. I am a virgo
41. I was never a perfect employee
42. Sometimes I suck really bad at being a son
43. Sometimes i resent being me
44. I love running
45. I love dogs
46. I love climbing mountains
47. I love using my brain for really good stuff
48. I love guns
49. I love bubble baths
50. I love champagne on ice in bed
51. I loved my first girl for 2 years before she ran away
52. I was physically beaten for the first time when I got to engineering college
53. My first job was as a Projects Engineer
54. My last job was as a Project Manager.
55. I love dessert-- mostly consuming
56. I love eating in general
57. I love shopping in super markets
58. I love dancing
59. I have never fully recovered from my first broken heart even though it was sooo many years back.
60. I have some regrets in my life, even if i'm sometimes ashamed to admit that.
61. I have naturally falling hair
62. I love reading
63. I wrote in a journal every day--without fail--from when i was 18 until i was 20.
64. I blog at least once a day`
65. I hate narrow thinking, closed-mindedness
66. I am generally not interested in politics
67. I love orchids
68. I love ..yeah .. just love
69. Yeah, i love that...
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What's your Humor?

Sunday, December 18, 2005
Doing a bit of heavy reading on sybols and their interpretations over the weekend.
Bumped into the Hexagram - no - this is not witchcraft !!!

A hexagram is a 6 pointed Star, composed of two overlapping triangles. One pointing down and the other at the sky. This is a symbol you'd see in lots of places - across cultures. It is traditionally interpreted as the combination of the "watery" (cool) female and the "fiery" (hot) , male. These two signs coexist in the universe following the universally accepted principles of duality (good-bad , yin - yang : those are a separate story though). You'll be able to view this symbol on the flag of Israel - so it's also known as the Star of David.

Further reading revealed how this sign comprising the 4 vital elements came to be known as the sign of totality. Indian mythology too, carries what we'd know as the Yantra - a series of Triangle pairs inverted to one another

Coming back to the symbolism in our lives. We go about our lives in a mundane manner. These symbols are always in front of us. Yet - how many of us have actually looked up at them and critiqued. We are neither believers - nor doubters. We are simply Zombies.

Our lives - as those of our ancestors are guided by the 4 elements. We are unbalanced - lacking one or more, with an excess of the others. With a theory based on that of the four elements, health was thought to depend on a balance of four fluids, or humors, in the human body:
fire corresponded to blood;
air to yellow bile;
water to phlegm; and
earth to black bile.

We still say that people can be in a "good humor" or a "bad humor".
So what's your Humor today?

A few associations that come to mind.
fire - red - sanguine, sturdy, optimistic
air - yellow - choleric, jaundiced, , anger, ill natured
water - green - cool, impassive
earth - black - melancholic, sad, depressed

I look for meaning in the smaller things that happen around me. Sometimes a simple smile sets things right and sometimes the achievement of a goal leaves me incomplete. A warm handshake builds trust while years of working together may not inspire the same. One moment is sometimes enough to know the person in front of you , while sometimes an entire lifetime may not suffice.
I wonder what we'd have to do to balance out our lives - live it in equality with the world around us. What humor works for us?
Answers anyone??
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What is wrong with me?

Sunday, December 11, 2005
There's definitely something wrong.

I don't know what - can't put my finger to what. The only thing I know is the WHO -it's me.
No amount of looking elsewhere will help at this point.
  1. I am accomodating. Extremely so. Then I end up getting hurt.
  2. I listen to the voices around me and take cues from them. Why?
  3. I talk a lot. Sometimes too many people know a lot about me. My extrovert nature lets me down. Then I make a fool of myself.
  4. I'm emotional more than I'm practical. The poor heart takes quite a pounding there.
  5. I go into a self-accusation mode when things don't turn out as envisioned. Then the depression starts building on me.
  6. My Intution is very very strong - but only for the things that don't work out. I knew it yesterday.
  7. My face is not for playing Poker. It gives away my emotions. Happiness & sadness - both!!
  8. I look to the lord when things go wrong - not for help or solace - just to tell him that I'm still around. You can throw whatever you want my way - I'll take it and come back for more. I won't stop as long as the lungs can handle it.
  9. I've made my life into a roller coaster- enjoy the crests and mope in the troughs.
  10. Everybody has trials & tribulations. I have solutions for everybody else. Just not for me.
So here's the deal - I'm a lonesome cowboy and that's the way I'll always be.

Some people are explorers looking for the Holy Grail. NOBODY HAS EVER FOUND IT TILL TODAY.
Then again some of us aren't meant to be tied down.... :-)
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Prick it up...

Sunday, December 11, 2005
No - this is not what you're thinking!!

Shakespeare has, "Tis now the prick of noon", in allusion to the mark on the Sun dial - made by pricking or indenting with a sharp instrument - that indicated 12 o' clock.

Did you know - the annual choosing of the Sheriffs in ancient England used to be done by the king - who pricked the names on a list at haphazard.

Ever felt like calling anyone a Pricklouse - an old contemptuous name for a tailor!!

Ever sang a Prick-song : That's written music for singing, as distinguished from music learnt by ear.

You've defintely had a Prick of the conscience , as you feel remorse and guilt for the past misdeeds. My conscience is always pricking me :-)

Somehow the one that I know best is when it's time to Prick up my ears and pay particular attention to follow what's going on. This is similar to a horse whose ears start twitching when it's attention is attracted.
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Being Thankful

Thursday, December 08, 2005
Sometimes I just look up and say Thank You, to no one in particular - so I address it to the lord.

There are so many reasons to be thankful and too few to cry about.
Yet, we always ask the lord - "WHY ME???"
We never ask that question, when we're doing good.

It's so rare that we remember to appreciate the good things that happen to us. I am not sermonizing at this point in time - just trying to understand why?

WHY do we always remain ungrateful?
WHY do we always say - FOR GOD'S SAKE ? - when the only sake we think of is our own?
WHY do we forget our childhood innocence and grow up to become stuck up individuals?
WHY do we partke of an Education, when it undermines us?
WHY do we overeat when there isn't enough for all?
WHY do we suffer when we know we don't have to?
WHY do we miss people when all we do is fight when they're aound?

Why am I still racking my brain for the answers? Maybe you'll have some...
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Monday...I'm in Blue!!

Monday, December 05, 2005
So I'm not suffering from the Monday Blues.
Not this Monday at least.
The week begins and opens up opportunities @ work & in Life.

I'm only wearing the color :-)

I do believe this will not be as busy a day as I'd hoped for. And again I have my reasons for getting home as soon as possible- today. Someone is coming!!!

My training will commence tomorrow. That will be interesting.
At least I will be able to putin my 10 cents of value somewhere.
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A tree starts off

Friday, December 02, 2005

Every Tree starts as a plant.
So started this.

This one has travelled from someone to me - from Mumbai to delhi - through extreme climate & a lot of shaking around.
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Abnormally normal

Friday, December 02, 2005
Are we normal ?
I mean who are normal people ?

This is quite like the dodo - only that the dodo is extinct and the NORMAL tribe is getting abnormally small..closer to the dodo!!
Normal guys write blogs like this..
(I don't know Mr. Rauf - but his blog helps me understand him.)

A normal guy is the one who throws things at you,a normal guy screams at the TV after a dropped catch. He doesn't cry himself hoarse about how great he is. You just know it.
Oh - some normal guys also watch Star wars... and believe they're Luke Skywalker reborn.
I do believe - that the only personality I'd match would be Hans Solo.

Normal guys are not saints. They're the obverse.
But we get lost somewhere in the materialistic world and just forget life's simpler pleasures.

It's so easy to smile and keep it on.
Like Vrinda just emailed me - start smiling and then go out into the coolllld Delhi morning. The smile will freeze up and you can wear it all day long.

Innovation - wot say folks?

Coming back to being normal. So, how many normal people (Guys & Gals) do we know?
I know one - my dad. Yes- he's normal. At 56 he's normal.

I'm 28 - yet feel abnormal!!

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